Richard Barnes

It was an unseasonably warm December, and somewhere nearby a rising tide in the San Francisco Bay was hoisting all kite-surfers, but Nick Edwards and Chris Monberg were hunker at opposite rented desks in a shared coworking seat near the Caltrain station in SoMa wondering if, by the centre of February, they would still have a company. At the moment Boomtrain, as the startup was called, technically had something like negative dollars, because it owed the nation of New York a $30,000 penalty after its payroll fellowship had been six weeks belatedly in telling them about a $400 unemployment-insurance statute for one of their remote technologists. Boomtrain also had no income, though that was hardly a hurdle to invoking investment capital in Silicon Valley. Somewhat more problematically, it didnt have a single purchaser, though there were various aviators in the offstages. Almost unknowingly, Nick and Chris had discovered themselves constructing a business of huge complexitya personalization instrument, based on machine-learning algorithmsand they were in over their pates. Neither soul was having an easy epoch saving it together. Chris was waking up each morning at 5 am grinding his teeth, and Nicks belt was clearly two notches tighter than customary. They had not taken paychecks in months; theyd be luck, in fact, if they intention up paying themselves $30,000 apiece for the year. Nick was obliging purposes fulfilled by Airbnb-ing out his apartment a couple of stymies from their place and travelling an hour each acces from his lovers lieu in Petaluma. Chris was reclining hard-handed on his indefatigable spouse. For this they had upended pleasant lives, and they could no longer quite remember why. Nick, 32, has sandy hair prone to straw-pile tangle; he speaks in speedy, tremulous explodes, and nurses himself with a schoolboys fretful defiance. He and his lover have a lithe golden retriever, Emmy, and Nick often seems less like Emmys owner than he does her bewildered, affectionate older brother. Chris, also 32, is a calmer attendance, with sunken eyes, a shaved brain, and a slow, soft, pressurized expression. His mien is both monkish and military, as if he ought to be wrapped in a dark tailored cloak.

They had about a few months to raise$ 1 millionor they are able to no longer make payroll.

Anxiety, as it had organized steadily through the drop and into December, drove the two friends along opposite trajectories. Nick had become jumpier, more spastic, with the light threat that he might wheel his eyes back into his head and swooning; while the more out of control their situations seemed, the deeper and slower and more effortfully limited were Chris voice and bear. High-stakes entrepreneurship is an exercise in self-restraint, and Nick and Chris sacrificed the thought of smothering different things. Nick seemed as though he might at any moment unravel into fear; Chris, into exasperation. When Nick began to grumbling imprecationfuck fuck fuck fuck fucking ,” it went, virtually TouretticallyChris folded him into a stern bear hug. Nick is a fidgeter, perpetually moving his cursor with his arrow keys and tapping his hoof underneath his table. Chris believes that what saved the relations between the two countries was moving to a carpeted place. Silicon Valley is not a lieu where one is invited to show frailty or despondence. It is, as Nick puts it,” the place where everybody is killing it all the time .” This might seem singular, given that the mint of the small-business founder has always been a fragile one. But in recent years the Valley has successfully developed the fantasy that entrepreneurshipand, more broadly, creativitycan be systematized. This is the basic hope of accelerators( Y Combinator et al .), that success in the startup recreation can be not only schooled but rationalized, established predictable. Starting a company was once an push experienced exclusively by the blindly ambitious and somewhat unsound, but in the Valley its been ostensibly transformed into a scheduled course we are capable of simply elect and is applicable for, instead as one might opt principle school or Wall st.. And the promise of professionalized entrepreneurship has had a particular appeal in recent years, since finance has been darkened and a job in principle realized increasingly doubtful. Starting a company has become the acces for ambitious young person to do something that seems simultaneously careerist and heroic. This daydream of constant killing-it has realized it difficult to talk about how grim and distraught the life of the founder is also possible. But over liquors with close friendson that rare party when an early-stage entrepreneur has time to have a drinking or accompany a friendalmost any founder will tell a story that much more closely resembles Nick and Chris than it does the story of your favorite billionaire, reverse-engineered to seem a nifty concern of predestination. This is especially true today, in the era of what observers have come to call the” Series A crunch .” Due in part to the rise of startup accelerators like Y Combinator, as well as to the surplus capital laundering all over the Valley from recent IPOs, it has never been easier to promote a small amount of money. And it has never been easier to build a companyespecially a entanglement or mobile productfrom that small amount of money, thanks in part to the proliferation of inexpensive, easy growth implements and such cloud scaffolds as Amazon Web Business. But the amount of “real” VC funding( i.e ., Series A rounds) to be allocated hasnt kept speed. The establishments that write the big checks, those that were likely to support and sustain real increment, can examine what a hundred fellowships have managed to do with a small check and throw their real fund on the hypothesis that predict the greatest yield and bear the least peril. Nick and Chris no longer cared about” killing it .” They were too honest and too tired for that communication and that posturing. At this quality they just wanted to survive. They had about a few months to raise$ 1 million or they would no longer be able to make payroll.

Welcome to the Hacker House

” Its a legend out of Dreiser ,” said the intellectual historian Fred Turner, referencing the late-1 9th-century novelist who bleakly recounted the exploitative early days of American industrial capitalism. The Dreiserian was a particularly strange humor to reconcile the working day, given that it was wintertime and, on the way into Turners office on the Stanford quad, Id picked one kumquat from a heavy cluster on a heavy-laden tree.” In Dreisers date it was the same ,” he went on.” New York didnt am worried about Chicago, but Chicago was where the hogs were being slaughtered. Now New York doesnt am worried about San Francisco, but today the hogs are being slaughtered in San Francisco .” What Turner made is that these are the charnel sand of the new economy, and that there isnt anything all that new about the new economy. Turners work, most notably his journal From Counterculture to Cyberculture , has described the contemporary ethos of the Valley as a synthesis of Cold War defense research and the 60 s spirit of New Communalism, creatingin theorya nonhierarchical, networked approaching to business. But in practice, business in the Valley continued to run in a familiarly exploitative acces. The Valley might not actually oblige much in accordance with the rules of tangible goods, but like industrial centres before it, its the place where the stunning success of the very few has been held out to the youth in exchange for their epoch, their vigor, andwell, their youth.

For that mild month of January 2014 Id been hiring a pallet at one of San Franciscos many” intruder rooms ,” so that I might satisfy some of those hopeful youths and see how they experienced about their odds. On Airbnb and craigslist and Facebook there are at least half a dozen of these shared living space, advertising themselves as frictionless on-ramps to Valley glory.” We’ve got guys from every great startup here ,” the guy who flowed the place said on the phone.” Square, Lyft, Uber, Dropbox, Twitter, Apple .” Assuring a bottom there compelled no fewer than three interrogations over Google+ Hangoutone of them a “technical” assessmentyet somehow he couldnt finding ways to email a photograph of the available room. I arrived to find I was paying $1,250 for a mattress on the flooring, behind a panel of imbricated lacerated shower screens, in an unheated rabbit warren of 20 bunk beds under a low-toned converted-warehouse ceiling. Unmarked from the outside, it was located on a deserted block in the vaguely contemptible place west of SoMa and south of the Community center, kept separately from Mission by little tent metropolis for the purposes of the highway. To get inside, you had to pass through a bolted breeze fastening piled with junk.

Silicon Valley is where the stunning success of the very fewis held out to the youth in exchange for their epoch, their vigor, andwell, their youth.

My cohort heralded from all over: Mumbai, Sydney, Hamburg, Appalachia. Theyd been in San Francisco two days or 2 week; the longest-standing tenant had been there about four months. At least at first, people referred to each other by job. There was the iOS developer from Houston: a balk, gangly, endearing kid just a few months out of an Ivy; hed bide for his stage, which he perturbed might seem dmod, but he was only razzed a little by the higher-status dropouts. There was the bitcoin guy, wide-eyed with a container cut, whod never before left his Appalachia backwater. And the Australian engineer who was starting an engineering employment marketplace when he wasnt engaged in Tinder meetings. Then there are still the doctor, who slept on the other side of the screen from me. A heavyset guy of 23, hed woken up in Mumbai one morning and had not been able return himself to clock in at the great municipal infirmary where he worked. Hed always been a coder but had heeded his parents and gone to medical school. By 9 am India time hed completed the flophouses technological interview via Google+ Hangout and bought air tickets leaving for SFO that night. His parents said,” Why today? Why not tomorrow? Or next week ?” But he knew if he waited even a date hed never croaked. On his second date ever in America he had an informational interview at Google. He seemed disoriented but in good spirits. He slept without a blanket and with three different inventions billing beside him on his bottom, lined up like kittens sleeping at the teat. His lover ever seemed available for purposes of videochat fornication. He was genuinely considerate about the whole concept. He usually waited until he belief I was sleeping, and even then he applied headphones. All I has actually listen on his demise was his muffled educations, together with profuse apologies that he couldnt be any louder. It existed to me that his lover was quite a good sport, since in India it was midmorning. I could tell he really missed her. All these kids, who didnt hitherto know what it was like to have a company of their own, or wind down a company of their own, or work for a giant fellowship and go the bus, seemed sure this is right one thing: that the longing for total revolution that had for so long been the trademark of youth was, at last, about to be fulfilled. The only concept they could count on was that they were going to be the generation that partake of the process by which all “wouldve been” yielded irrevocably different. It didnt appears to matter what certain differences was, or whom it helped or injure. It exactly mattered that events in the future would be unlike anything united ascertained before. And that, in the process, they were sure, many of them would get very rich.

How the Game is Played

On January 3, Nick and Chris met with two investors, Bobby and Ullas, part of a group of superangels centeredsomewhat improbablyaround a carpet accumulate in Palo Alto. How rug merchants got into tech investing is a long and complicated legend, but the short version is that people who buy expensive hand-sold Persian rugs over pile tea in Palo Alto happen to be profitable people to know. The radical had been involved in a lot of impressive early-stage slews, among other issues Uber and Dropbox.

Nick and Chris had drawn up income juttings, likened those to a scorch frequency based on the engineers they knew they were required to hire, and concluded that they needed a runway of about$ 1 million to get them to strong income increment by Q3. Bobby and Ullas thought that they could reach out to their network and reassure a commitment in the $700,000 to $900,000 wander. They wanted to see at least $200,000 in commitments from other investors to close out the round. While they didnt “re going to have to” make this explicit to Nick and Chris, its standard practice for early commitments like this to be contingent on replenishing out the residual. All Valley offerings are provisional until the money is actually in the bank, and if Boomtrain couldnt find another big investor, the carpet guys might very well back out. Also, Nick and Chris clearly hoped to have a big, recognizable VC firm in this roundboth for the credibility, which would go far toward their ultimate success, and for the head start it would give them when they needed to try to raise an A round, perhaps in a years epoch. Still, even this soft commitment from Bobby and Ullas was great for morale. What they needed, perhaps even more than fund, was a sense of momentum.

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They also had a promising lead on the rent front. Its extremely difficult to hire talented technologists in the Valley unless youve got stunning PR, can offer a fate, or are offering the chance to work on an exceptionally difficult problem. Nobody was buzzing about them, and they had no fund, but the upside of having a business that relied on serious machine learning was that they had worthy defies on the table. On January 4, they made an offer to precisely the kinds of designer they needed, Tevye. He had a PhD in AI from MIT. Just to contextualize what that intends in Silicon Valley, an MIT AI PhD are normally walk alone into an investor rally wearing a coconut-shell bra, play a series of improvised birdcalls, and walk out with$ 1 million. Nick and Chris had gone to good academies of modest profileNick to the University of Puget Sound, Chris to the University of Vermontand while Nick also had a Harvard business degree, the two are skeptical about the credential fetish of the Valley. They were happy to play video games when they could, though. They invited Tevye, together with a few technological consultants, to their shared place seat for a Saturday ” immersive ,” or strategy meeting. Nick and Chris retrieved paleo illustrations for the tech consultants, and everyone gathered around a giant butcher block in front of a whiteboard. Chris convened their rally with people saying,” We have 10 fellowships waiting to work with us, and were about to close a round of funding .” These proclamations werent strictly true, but one couldn’t hire technologists without projecting a sunlit-uplands future. As Chris had put it to me,” Lying your acces along puts you in a bad lieu. But you do have to offset transparency with confidence .” And Tevye would be a real boon for the company, exactly what they needed to close their slews. The only intellect he was considering joining Nick and Chris was that hed formerly thought of founding a same sort of go. Hed be taking a 40 percentage fee cut to join them, but he would have his hard trouble and would get to run his own data-science crew. Nick and Chris had allotted an equity reserve that was larger than average, and they were obliging Tevye a generous offerin a highly theoretical sense. San Francisco is fraught with people walking around with their pockets substance with 1.2 percentage of nothing. Tevye signed up. He asked to begin on January 27, approximately two weeks before Nick and Chris money was set to run out. Now that they had an designer, Nick experienced pretty good going into his meeting on Sunday, January 5, with what the fuck is, with any fluke, be their first paying purchaser. He gratified the director general of a small dimension that was part of a giant media concern. The GM knew how video games was played: He was happy to be a “customer” in exchange for a deep rebate. He seemed over Nicks fee schedule and selected the service he belief his fellowship would need, then negotiated a 75 percentage rebate for a three-month contest. It wasnt much in accordance with the rules of incomes for Boomtrain but it was something, and if it was successful they could expect the mother fellowship to be a great path marriage, maybewho knew? accompanying them into their other properties across the board. On Monday morning, Nick and Chris took stock. They had one customer, a big name who was paying them almost nothing. They had one new designer, sterling of credential and honour, but in 25 dates they might have no fund to pay him. They had a cartel of investors, who had soft-committed on the basis of revenue juttings they feared they might have to downwardly alter and who might back out if they failed to secure a meaningfully large-scale check from an unconnected, well-known, preferably institutional party. Chris placed at Nick as though he werent there.” He’s 75 percentage sure we’ll push this off .” Im 99 percentage sure well pluck this off, Nick said. But then again, Im the delusional one. Chris, for all his outward placidity, was the cynic.” That’s why we work so well together .”

Where Boomtrain Came From

It was hard to be thought that Nick and Chris, coarsened and scarred by the gauntlet theyd endured, has in the past partaken in the hacker-house dream of total disruption. But in fact Boomtrain had begun with a very different, and similarly transformational, imagination for what it might do. They had acquaintances who were obliging videos, young filmmakers hitting entanglement abruptlies on a shoelace. Meanwhile, lots of people were looking for things to watch online. But the online video mart was fragmented and liable to the influence of moneyed stakes. There was substance on Hulu and substance on Netflix and substance on YouTube andmost important, to themstuff being realized here and there by aspiring amateurs. What the Internet requirement, Nick and Chris reflected, was a clearinghouse to help make sense of it all. It would be good for the makes and good for the consumers.

Nick and Chris met 10 years ago in Seattle, just after college, where Nick founded a publication of international politics and Chris, who had graduated with an engineering stage, was working at a digital ad busines. On one of their first outings together they took to the ocean. Nick grew up sailing and had just bought a junky little craft for a few hundred dollars, around which Chris racedin a craft hed dipped into his savings to buyin scorning cliques. From those first day they talked about founding something together. At first, this was a form of courting. One “ve said”,” I’d really like to start a business with you one day ,” but for a while it was just a acces to contact cheerfulnes and confidence. Over epoch they ripened open; Nicks sister became inseparable from Chris wife, Chris got along famously with Nicks college acquaintances, and so on. It was as though they starred in a sitcom that needed a budget to pay extras. Nick went away to business school at Harvard; afterwards, he turned down offerings from Google and Wall st. and went to work for a medium-size engineering fellowship. Chris, meanwhile, acted his acces up to running the interactive disagreement of the digital busines. Both were comfy but longed to lopes their own store, and to do so together. On a sailing trip in the Sea of Cortes for Nicks 30 th birthday, they crowded a yellowed legal pad with plans. They settled on that magnificent imagination for Internet video, a social-discovery instrument where all the fragmented content could be aggregated and then recommended based on algorithmic processing and social data. If it acted the acces they wanted it to, they could help small-budget makes circumvent the existing systems gatekeepers. On the strength of an unsteady, ill-lit two-minute video they hit on a webcam, they were accepted into AngelPad, a neighbourhood incubator run by an early Google employee. Within eight weeks of their graduation, theyd accumulated $450,000 on a convertible note. Chris showed me a picture of Nicks hand, violet and swollen like a bony eggplant from the high five theyd committed one another when they got their first perpetrate. A few months out of AngelPad, however, they “pivoted.” They’d learned, in part from investors they’d met and in part from just trying, that selling a place to shoppers is just more hard, at least if you dont have a fate to begin with. Selling to business customersa structured, repeatable processwould be a lot easier. You need 10 patrons, 100 patrons, rather than 1million or 10 million useds. And your investors can interpose you to capability patrons, because they are already investing in many of them as well.

” I’M 99 PERCENT SURE WE’LL PULL THIS OFF ,” NICK SAID.” BUT THEN AGAIN, I’M THE DELUSIONAL ONE .”

So before Nick and Chris really had the chance to realize it, they’d” ripped out the heart” of their original meaning and throw it to work in the service of a new idea: a” multichannel personalized notification platform .” It was a software-as-a-service concoction that allowed corporations to tailor individualized recommendations to their billions of patrons. It could be thought of as a Netflix-style recommendation instrument that any business could plug into without constructing its own. There were already a slate of enterprises that did this for on-site recommendations, the little chests that hint what videoclip, publication clause, or pair of gasps you are able to wishing to or spend next. Boomtrain’s value proposition was in using the same backend to drive personalized notifications across all scaffolds: they could furnish onsite chests, personalized emails, SMS reminders, or thrust messaging. They decided to focus first on emails, largely because big media fellowships already had seven-figure pipeline components in their own budgets for the undifferentiated mass emails they were sendingfor a click frequency of maybe 3 percent on a good day. Their long-range proposal, however( what investors in the Valley like to call the ” Google-sized ” version of the company ), concerned creating a lord identity organization that would recognize patrons across multiple sites. It would be as if Netflix recommended movies based in part on what youd spoken in The New York Times and bought at Zappos, and it would work out of the box for any place. Like any fellowship that collected data, it would thrive exponentially most powerful and appealing as it reached scale. The more patrons they had, the very best their recommendations to all customers would be. Nick and Chris would never explicitly acknowledge it, but in unguarded instants it seemed clear that they missed their old-time meaning, the one theyd “re coming” with on the craft, the one that had dished a wide-ranging and elegant social role. Their instants of greatest living were when they indicated off their first demos and decks, when they seemed decades younger. At the same epoch, however, one of their greatest repents was that they hadnt swiveled early enough, because now the government has such a short time. In the Valley they are able to raise money on promiseas theyd done onceor on decisions, which they didnt have quite hitherto. They were left to brood over a roster of if-onlys. If exclusively theyd swiveled 2 month earlier! If exclusively theyd bided at their jobs somewhat longer. If exclusively that one VC, business partners at a large brand-name East Coast investor, hadnt abruptly left his firm just before they were to close on $500,000, a half million that would have led, effortlessly, to twice that amount. At this quality, they were forced to play a shell game with everyone they met. Without investors, they couldnt yield to hire the engineers they required to sell a robust concoction to patrons. Without patrons, they had no market-traction data to show investors. They needed investors to get the consumers and technologists; they needed customers to get investors and technologists; they needed technologists to get the consumers and investors. If they didnt act as though it were all in place, there was no chance it would ever fall into lieu. By mid-February, they belief, either all their stories would come true or nothing of them would.

A Tale of Two Lifestyles

“Techies” often get lumped together, but the lifestyle breach between startup founders and the employees of large-scale fellowships is unbridgeable. One darknes I escaped the intruder house to go out with a group of founders from various startups: a dating app, two food-related apps, a videochat app, something that had to do with drone deployment, and an app that was, at last, going to help all of us improve communication. At 10:30 the waitress came over to take our orders for a second round. I told another whiskey, but everybody else looked at their telephones with softened feeling. At 11 pm the founders rose in duos to leave, as if they had an exam in the morning. One founder( his fellowship was literally an app that optimized app supermarkets for other apps ), whod told a ocean and had to take away neither his backpack nor his coat, defended on behalf of everybody for leaving so early.

” When you have an early-stage fellowship ,” he said,” theres no time to hang out at a cool, stylish table .” He was 23. The table might well cool and stylish in Miami in 2004. By compare, on a weekend afternoon I went over to find my young cousina talented and good-humored UX designer for Googlewith his friends in Alamo Square, where they were winding down a barbecue in the January sun. I arrived belatedly, as the haze was beginning to gather in the west over the Richmond, and the group assembled there was playing video games of mass footsie on some blankets theyd set out on the leeward gradient. My cousin was inflicting amateur reflexology on the hoofs of a giggling companion while she idly juggled the decapitated heads of state of a plagiarist piata. The candies that had spilled from the piata were sown about in the grass, shimmering.

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A few of them worked for Google in one capacity or another, though none wore the companys insignium. I asked if anybody there worked for a startup. My cousin seemed around and shook his head.” Some of these people used to ,” he said, and went back to scheming the hourly acts of “states parties ” theyd be throwing where reference is got nicer outthough it didnt seem possible that it is able to get nicer out, ever, than it was right thenwhere theyd begin one evening with dinner and conclude the following morning with brunch. Theyd gotten as far as sunup yoga. It began to get cold and everybody rolled up the blankets and went back to the house, which had various terraced floorings of downtown thoughts, where the gold late sun flashed off the aquarium glass of new high-rises downtown. The entrepreneurs, if they were old-time enough, could perhaps remember a time in “peoples lives” to be given to such extracurriculars as free time, booze, or mass post-piata footsie. My cousin was having the time of his life, but a lot of the startup guysperhaps, in part, as a defensesaw journeying the corporate bus as the most sad of failings. Even Nick and Chris, who did not know contempt as a mode, were appalled at the envisage. This was a quite self-delusional attitude, as their second- through sixth-best-case scenarios were being acquired by one of the 5 whale, strong, affluent fellowships. Even if Nick and Chris lived another time, there was a good chance theyd exactly be living to throw themselves in a position to get a nice signing bonus when they ultimately confessed to dates framed by long bus commutesjust like the many other entrepreneurs who came to look at having a neglected startup as an alternative to grad school. The best-case scenario, of course, was an IPO; it was the only way to save the promised autonomy of a startup, even if it made being beholden to stockholders. The dreaming was for your fellowship to be the one in a million that became Uber, Dropbox, Airbnb, Square. Theyre consumer-facing, first of all, and thus part of a luminary matrix, and they oblige or allow something that people pay for. They arent exactly advertising fellowships, like Facebook and Google. The guy at the flophouse with the most clout was a mop-headed coder who worked at Square. One darknes at dinner he slyly mocked another former flop-houser, this one a recently minted UX designer at Apple. At Apple you sometimes couldnt even work on your own bus, lest hires in different groups accompany what you were up to; at Square, everybody was emailed times of everybody elses fulfills. The biggest status play at that dinner table, and at hundreds like it, was to work at the biggest fellowship that maintained startup cred, the biggest lieu you are able experience as though you were working on an imaginable whole rather than a tiny persona. One date I was out with Chris picking up burritos when a vehicle retarded and the operator brandished.” So this is your new vehicle, eh ?” Chris asked. It was his old and close friend Tony, whose fellowship had just been purchased by Dropbox. I asked Chris how he belief Tony experienced, going from the feeling of has become a founder to the easy life of a 9-to-7 designer at Dropbox.” Youd have to ask him ,” Chris said.” But I bet it feels like a big fucking comfort .”

How to Answer a Trick Question

Boomtrains dates at the place were a blur of sales calls, engineering fulfills over Google+ Hangout, and pitchings to investors. It seemed like an inhuman achievement that Nick could hinder himself awake for the sales calls, where he gave the same tar over and over to the same assumed , nontechnical marketing people. Chris seemed to derive a lot of energy from the engineering discussions; perhaps this wasnt quite the company theyd intended to encountered, but Chris is an engineering autodidact, and he gleaned great pleasure from the technical details of network structure and data structure.

Nick and Chris tended to take investor calls together when they could. Nick leaned over personal computers while Chris lay back in his bench.” I don’t know how fast you move ,” Nick often inaugurated his tar,” but we’re moving fast over here. We set out to raise$ 1million, but we’re already at $900,000 dedicated. Now were considering giving the round get oversubscribed, so we could try to find some room for you .” “Don’t worry,” project partners ever said.” We can move fast .” Nick had good answers to questions about what differentiated them from their competitors and persuading estimates of the market width in the personalized-notification seat. Sometimes he had to scramble to look up the website of a contestant hed never heard of, but he could usually return that off. All inevitably went swimmingly until they had to answer two questions. The first: so, whos contributing the round?” I’m sure you’ve heard of the Persian rug mafia ,” Nick “ve said”.” Ummmmm no .”” Well, they’re great investors. They were early at Uber and Dropbox .” The invocation of Uber and Dropbox perked up any dialogue in the Valley, but it rarely seemed all that reassuring to investors. The second question, ever, was this: What kind of data did they have? By what metrics could they attest the evaluate proposition of their concoction? Nick and Chris had answers exclusively about their internal tests on clickthrough proportions for their first concoction, the one theyd abandoned. Under interrogating, they eventually had to concede theyd just finished constructing out the new post-pivot engineering and didnt hitherto have meaningful digits to prove. This was the quality when the accrued investor vigor initiated to dissipate. At times like these Nick tended to jellify, as if all of his bones had abruptly fled his trembling mas, and he would look to the steely, loosened Chris for support.” I have to admit, I just wonder ,” one investor said.” How special is the special sauce ?”” I adoration the concoction ,” another said,” but I exactly don’t know your patrons that well .”” It’s a great team, but I worry that you guys are selling to content publishers, and I could have been connect you to ecommerce patrons .”” Wonderful technology, but you guys are working in ecommerce, and my whole network is content publishing .”” You might find a hundred patrons, but I don’t know if you’ll locate hundreds of thousands of. I can see you guys getting to $10 million in income, but it’s hard to see how youd get to $100 million .”” Why now? When I was at Yahoo in 1996, we were working on the personalization trouble then .” (” Yeah ,” said Chris later,” and you didnt solve it .”) And one of the biggest is available in township:” I adoration what youre doing, but as an investor I exactly dont “know what i m thinking” my evaluate include “wouldve been” .” At the end of these meetings, the investor would ever say he had to talk to his partners and would get back to them.” I sacrifice that one ,” Nick said once,” about a 9.467 percentage risk of working out .”” We just tell him ,” Chris said,” that we’re focusing on product and patrons for now. We’re onboarding four patrons next week .” Even if they were just aviators, that was actually true, and it meant that within six weeks they’d have real answers to the metrics subject.

SILICON VALLEY IS NOT A PLACE WHERE ONE IS INVITED TO SHOW FRAILTY OR DESPONDENCE. IT IS, AS NICK PUTS IT,” THE PLACE WHERE EVERYBODY IS KILLING IT ALL THE TIME .”

” But we told him a week ago that we didnt have any real patrons hitherto ,” Nick countered,” because we’ve had to invest so much epoch fund-raising .” Nick got an email from one of their earliest investors. He was writing to them to suggest that now was the time for them to get press, to push their seed round along into completion. He intimated they rotate a legend about their pivot to TechCrunch.” What’s the story going to get ?” Nick asked.” We had an futile business ,” Chris said,” and now we have a marginally most successful business, which might be really successful if anyone trusts us enough to give us the money so we can actually stop fund-raising and focus on our concoction ?”” We swiveled from a business nobodys ever heard of ,” Nick went on,” to another business nobody ever heard of, and we have big investors we cant figure and patrons we cant mention, but trust each other, were a big deal ?” This was gallows feeling, but it meant something. It wasn’t a lie, precisely, to get your business three or six or nine months down the road by talking about your business as if it already were six or nine months down the road. The styles of patrons they were selling to, Chris explained, were big “legacy” fellowships that tend to move slowly and by committee, so Boomtrain could yield to oblige predicts on interruption. Push notifications, for example: That was something they couldnt do quite hitherto, though they played as though it was part of their standard package. But they could easily prioritize it and get it done in three weeks. If a paying purchaser missed it right off, they could stop everything and get wise done in a few weeks. This was the recognized acces. But trying to lieu a phony legend of their impending greatness on TechCrunch experienced a little disreputable to them. They had too much heart for that. At the end of one of their investor fulfills, business partners said,” If I write a check and you close this round tomorrow, and the next day you get an acquisition offer for $100 million, what do you do ?” Chris later explained that this was a trick question. Everyone knows the right answer is” Hell no, I wouldn’t sell. This is a billion-dollar fellowship !” This is the answer any flop-houser would sacrifice.” But that’s such bullshit ,” Chris said.” Of direction we’d sell. We’d provide really well for our technologists, we’d get out of this impossible-seeming situation and start over with a clean slate. But youre not allowed to say that .” I asked what hed do with his share of that $100 million. He didnt hesitate.” I’d buy a craft, and Michelle and I would take off, invest four years sailing of all the countries .” During the performance of its job hed canceled two vacations with Michelle, one to Turkey and one to Paris, and now that he was a founder he didnt even bother planning one. Michelle had been amazing all the while; it was clear to Chris that she’d discovered immense stockpiles of persuasivenes molted never known she had.” But, still, I’d just like to take her away for a while .”

Making a Difference, Changing the World

By this quality the compare between the pain reality of Boomtrain and the vacuous confidence of my young roommates was growing harder to bear. The iOS developer got a job at a company called Scanadu. I asked what it did.” Basically it’s this thing thats going to disintermediate doctors. It checks your vitals for you, like that concept on Star Trek, and it’s going to totally disrupt the medical manufacture. Its going to make doctors obsolete .”

These young men were only glad when they were talking or thinking about being in the business of wholesale metamorphosi. On the working day the iOS developer got his undertaking obliging doctors obsolete, a Ruby developer who had recently moved out came back to the house to cook dinner. He was six months out of a technological academy in the Northeast and had just gotten his first undertaking ever. The fellowship did payroll.” These guys parent $6.1 million in seed funding out of Y Combinator. Thats maybe the biggest seed round in Valley history. We’ve got a ton of momentum, solving real troubles. Its pretty awesome .”” What trouble are you solving ?” “Payroll.” ” What about payroll ?”” The trouble of payroll. You should listen the emails we’re getting from our patrons .” The Ruby developer couldnt figure a number of problems with payroll that his fellowship was solving; he thought they were just solving a problem called payroll. He was simply on payroll for the first time in his life, and needless to say had never himself run into payroll troubles. But he was working for a startup with YC credentials that had leveraged new technologies and parent a lot of fund, so he could reasonably feel now that he hadnt exactly connected a company that did something incrementalfixed the various types problems linked to payroll, of which there are manybut something revolutionary, i.e ., securing their own problems of payroll.

The Ruby developer was admonishing the iOS developer , now that they both had undertakings paying $120,000 a year, about is moving forward. The Ruby developer had liked the camaraderie of the place but had wanted to live somewhere he could return girls (” in that unicorn of an event “) or put up clients. The iOS guy didnt want to pay more than $2,000 a few months for a studio and was having a hard time noticing something.” You cant forget ,” said the Ruby developer,” that this city has created more millionaires than any municipality in the history of the world .” He was doling out glutinous scarlet knots of Trader Joes tortellini beside heavy jaundiced globs of Annies shells and cheese. Hed been around long enough to make over a hundred magnificent a year, but not long enough to know that carbs were bad signaling.” What parts of the city are you appearing in ?”” Oh, you know, the actual municipality .” I asked what that was.” SoMa, China Basin, Mission Bay. What people like us call the city .” Hed been in the city for something like three weeks, and most of what he knew about it came from people who themselves had only been around for eight to 10 weeks. Mission Bay was a landfill turned into a infirmary that hadnt even been finish this. China Basin felt like some prefabricated drag-and-drop story of stymies out of the original SimCity. And hitherto there still was, however dimly experienced, the newcomers desire to feel a part of something that had been around awhile. The guys wanted to go to a hookah table on Haight, so we got a Lyft and got dropped off in front of where the Red Vic used to be.” This really feels like the’ 60 s ,” one of them said, and I couldnt tell if he was joking.

At last-place there was some very good information for Boomtrain. Nick and Chris had gotten a rally at Google Ventures, the companys quasi-autonomous speculation limb. Transaction on the southbound 101 had no force, and they were so preoccupied they didnt appears to detect the spreading flares of copper sunup over the Oakland Hills across the inlet. Nick had woken up at 4:30 in the morning to get down to the city from Petaluma so they could oblige the drive together.” We’re going to have to throw our very best hoof forwards ,” Chris said.” Thats you ,” Nick said.” You are our very best hoof .” He was giggly from so little sleep and such high-pitched stakes.

At Google Ventures, the receptionist make us into a cafeteria with an Odwalla refrigerator and some basketed fruit. The fruit was labeled. The tangerine sign advised that the tangerines were from the Rising C Ranch in the San Joaquin Valley. It went on to note that there was exactly one tangerine in a serve of tangerines. There were no tangerines left.

51 Number of new tech fellowships launched every month in the San Francisco Bay area

$1,050/ Month Median rent for a one-bedroom suite in San Francisco, 2004 $3,150/ Month Median in March 2014 +62 Percentage altered in the cost of San Francisco place seat since 2009 16. 2, 8.2 Percentage vacancy rate for S.F. place seat in 2009 and 2013, respectively 34 Number of tech-based coworking openings in San Francisco in 2014 15, 931 Number of self-identified Silicon Valley angel investors in 2014 6, 282 Number of seed- or angel-funded startups in San Francisco that going to go at least a year without invoking a Sequence A round $118,949 Average stipend for a Google software engineer, according to Glassdoor.com $37,800 Average salary that San Francisco bay areabased startup founders pay themselves

The marriage didnt crave me in the rally, so I told Nick and Chris I was going to drink my mas load in Odwalla.” Please do ,” Nick said.” Its the only thing were going to get from these guys .” Nick and Chris went into the rally and I sat across from the Odwalla trove. On a large screen flashed the knowledge of founders. Ask forgiveness , not dispensation. Simply traction matters. Have a great crew. Extend from the front. If you think your concoction is perfect at opening, you waited acces too long to launch it . The receptionist was numb to the bromides. She rebounded virtually imperceptibly to light residence music. I seemed up the GV partner on Facebook, the one who hadnt let me into the rally. He and I had a few friends in common, so I emailed one of them to do some side-channel due diligence of my own. She wrote back right off to say that he had just posted paintings on Facebook from a Miley Cyrus party he was at in Vegas. I felt like I was going to float away on a little antioxidant cloud of Odwalla but went to get some more regardless, and by the time I got back Nick and Chris were outside. They seemed loopy. Chris had climbed onto a rickety free Google bike coated in Day-Glo colorings, like something that might have been buckled to a Merry Prankster bus, and he was journeying in unsteady little cliques in the shade of the empty mint. The bicycle was too small for his large frame and crunched his knees. In the car Chris pounded on the sprint. Google Ventures was in! Google Ventures was in! Theyd soft-committed to at least $100,000, maybe even $200,000. The marriage has indeed gotten it. Hed totally agreed with their upmarket programme, unlike potential investors who wanted them to focus on a no-cost-to-deploy self-serve concoction. All he missed was a reworked operational proposal and a clearly defined course to a Series Aa course that was a lot clearer when you had Google Ventures on your detonator table. The final concept he missed was for Nick to send their deck over to a guy he relied on their grocery seat, at a boutique conglomerate in LA. I experienced bad Id written off the Google Ventures marriage for his closed-meeting, Miley Cyrusconsorting rooms. Only as we got back to the city, a report came over the wire that Nest had been acquired by Google for $3.2 billion in money. Nest had been backed by Google Ventures, their biggest win so far. This seemed like an auspicious bit of information. Nick checked his email and got the signed offer letter from Tevye, the MIT AI PhD. And the paying purchaser, the one from the great media corporation, was integrated and about to go live. It all seemed as though, in the distance of 1 hour, it was coming together at last.

Always Be Closing

Boomtrains meeting with Bobby and Ullas had been set for the third largest week in January, by which quality they were supposed to have almost filled out their financing round. In the three weeks leading up to the rally, the best interest from Google Ventures had been their only enormous stroke of good fortune; despite having talked to at least two dozen investors, they were essentially in the same lieu as when theyd left Bobby and Ullas at the opening up of the month. If the Google Ventures commit came through, they would be fine, but they had to be careful not to oversell the potential. It would be awful if GV seemed to have been definitively in the round but backed out after due diligence. That was the kind of concept that really spooked investors, when a bigger investor backed out at the last minute. The potential coinvestor in LAthe one whose opinion the GV partner in Mountain View was counting on for his own decisionsent an email asking if he could move up for a full marriage rally at the end of the week, which was a good signed, but it was two days after their rally in Mountain View and their temporary lightnes had given acces to the old-time anxiety.

There was no way to know how Bobby and Ullas would react to this state of affairs. If they didnt were in favour of wire the money theyd dedicated, despite the fact that the round seemed very unlikely to close by the end of the month, Boomtrain would not make payroll, Tevye is very likely to fade, and theyd have to tell their beloved technologists( whom theyd mainly been safeguarding from their feeling over the companys uncertain future) that theyd be winding the go down. On the morning of the rally, Nick arrived to find the front door of their coworking seat crushed. Earlier reachings had just crunched their acces over the drifts of glass, so it was left to Nick to take up a broom and embroil the shards into a glittering slew. Bobby came a little early, a good signed. He was a large soul, his shoulders a rounded bulk rising over his cervix, and on him was the scent of lather. He very carefully made his coat inside out and folded it behind him. He rolled up his sleeves. Most investors ignored me at fulfills, but Bobby addressed me right off.” You’re going to hear some difficult and challenging exchanges of valuation .” He sacrificed the thought of groomed influence. Nick leaned forwards, his shoulders on his knees. Chris leaned back, his arms loose by his surface. Ullas would join them afterwards, but Bobby didnt have a lot of epoch and there was a lot to comprise: valuation, timeline, shutting year, board benches. Bobby missed Ullas to take a board bench, because Ullas was the kind of guy who didnt start shaking when events went wrong. Bobby liked to stay off boards. He wished a consultative role, so he could stay on the entrepreneurs surface.” So do you think its still reasonable to shoot for the end of the month ?” Chris asked, with affected nonchalance. Nicks dog, Emmy, careered around a corner and bounded toward the center of the rally. I caught her and deemed her back so she wouldnt leap onto Bobbys expensive garment. I could experience her heart drumming madly under her rib.

Two dates after their Rally WITH GOOGLE VENTURES, ELATION HAD GIVEN WAY TO ANXIETY.

Bobby belief the end of the month was penalty, beginning of Februaryeither way, it was all penalty. Maybe the second or third week of February. It didnt concern, “there werent” haste. Bobby and Ullas were both more than happy to wait. First he wanted to see the most recent operational proposal. Nick opened his lip as if to say something, then exactly brought up the plan on his laptop.” So where on here is your break-even quality ?” Emmy seemed across at her owned. Nick withdrew.” We’ve revised those vigorous digits and moved it back into the drop, October or November. Its a big cushion that allows us to slip a little. Though of course were no longer planning to. Slip, the hell is .” Ullas arrived. Whereas Bobby had a heavy, colonized, rocky vigor, Ullas was sharp-worded, with a brilliantined thatch of thick-skulled hair, almond eyes, and a pointed chin. He wore long glossy diminished shoes.” We’re both inclined has progressed ,” Ullas inaugurated. He wanted to finalize the investor roster. Nick created his yellowed legal pad. Hed written down investors with digits by their reputations, labeling GV and their LA partner as soft devotes. Ullas pointed to them. “Google Ventures,” he said, clearly trying not to seem impressed.” I didnt recognise they could write tiny checks .”” We’re knocking the tires fairly hard-handed to those used guys ,” Nick said.” We exactly want to make sure theres room left in the round for them .” Next to Bobbys and Ullas names Nick had written compass, since they had never been very precise about what they were offering. Ullas gestured that Nick should just go ahead and add up the roster of numbers, but Nick hesitated; he wasnt sure which digits to use. After a few moments Ullas gleaned his slim fingers down the editorial of lower digits. The total now came to about $750,000. If they were still talking about a$ 1million round, the presumed contribution from GV would close it out. But they had to talk about hiring. Nick and Chris had planned to hire three more technologists right off, but Bobby and Ullas thought they needed a dedicated auctions guy and a few people in biz dev. Plus, with their reworked income juttings, Bobby thought they could use a few more months of runway. So now Bobby and Ullas thought Boomtrain needed to raise something closer to $1.5 million. Nick and Chris had started this meeting concluding the government has $900,000 of a round of about$ 1million. Now they were discovering they had only half of a much bigger round.” So where’s your other $750,000 going to come from ?” Ullas said.” Step up and get wise. Its good workout for you to get out there and sell the company .” Worse, the question of the closing year had not been colonized, and it seemed as though the rally was in danger of resolving before it was possible to brought forward by. Nick hadnt managed to find a good time to mention that without a more or less immediate infusion of money, they wouldnt even have the opportunity to find the money theyd need to close the round. Boomtrain hung in the remaining balance. Just then Tevye came in. Chris brandished him over and introduced their new MIT AI PhD. He was perfectly badly dressed. They accepted him to the team, and “hed left”. Tevye’s cameo, brief as it was, seemed to change the tenor of the rally.” How much money do “youve got in” the bank? Bobby asked. Nick stuttered. You can make payroll this month, yes ?”” This month, easily. Next month, maybe not ” ” To the wire, this really is ,” Ullas said. There was a long, heavy suspension.” But dont dwell, this happens all the time. Well do a staged shut. Youll make payroll. Then you go out and find the rest of the money you need .” Bobby reeled down his sleeves, carefully revealed his coat, and made it right-side-out. Nick and Chris thanked them for coming. And, with that, they were still in businessa variety of it, at least.

Be Careful What You Care For

In the Silicon Valley “ecosystem” a troubling, pervasive statement, often used in bad faith, that clears the challenges of the a lieu like Boomtrain seem organic, natural, cyclicalthe job of Paul Martino is that of roving for-profit life reinforce. Martinos firm, Bullpen Capital, usually works with fellowships that are a little further along than Boomtrain; most of his purchasers have raised thousands and thousands of bucks or so and are persisted at a slightly higher altitude in the moras that deemed Boomtrain fasttoo late for hope, too early for decisions. He helps bridge those companies on their acces to invoking an A, but the basic problem his portfolio fellowships face “re the same” one everybody faces. Its pretty easy to get enough fund to get in over your brain and pretty hard to get enough fund to stay afloat. The reality is that the rising tide does more drowning than it does lifting.

Martino and I had realized plans to meet at a coffee shop on the main drag in Mountain View, but when he got there he found it more full of geeks on laptops, so he called an audible in favour of the bar across the street, where he could watch the game. He was killing a few hours before his red-eye back to Philadelphia, where he grew up and lives approximately half the time. He was wearing a amber chain, a light grey-headed windbreaker with a Garden City Casino logo, khaki abruptlies, and sockless loafers. He cut an appealing figure in the Valley, a no-nonsense stoop-sitting form. “Look,” he said.” The trouble in 1999 was that to get$ 5million you didnt need very much .” He talked as though he were grinding on sips of nuts.” You needed one or two Stanford rsums, an idea for a example, and a live mas to give the money to .” Its hard to get that$ 5million now in part because its so simple, as it was for Nick and Chris, to get $500,000, specially if youre coming out of an accelerator. One acces to look at it is that the$ 5million that went to see one company of 10 people in 1999 is now going to 10 fellowships of two people.” You’ve lowered the bar 10 X .” Which means youre getting a lot of people starting fellowships who shouldnt be starting fellowships. Another investor I talked to called this” to purchase a inexpensive call option on a guy who doesn’t know thats what youre doing” on a guy, that is, who thinks youre investing in his success , not gambling on the high-risk, high-yield chances of it. You know the odds on any committed firm success are long, but thats why you make a lot of wagers. In the first dotcom thunder, health risks was primarily carried by the investors, but now health risks has been returned to the youth. Without mentioning the name of the company, I told him about Boomtrain, about what the past few weeks and months had been like for them. About how quickly they’d aged, how much load theyd lost, the Airbnb-ing, the heavy concealment of trust, the number of members of mornings theyd woken up at 5 am grinding their teeth. Martino was sympathetic but indifferent. He didnt is looking forward to to make it.” They flowed an experiment. Nothing of their lives have been ruined .” He knew theyd get good undertakings, even if it made the life of research projects director at Yahoo.” And nothing of their investors lives have been devastated either. When they close up store, their investors will say, Thats one more off the books. I dont need to help them anymore. I get my epoch back.'” Martino watched the game for a minute, then turned back to me and deemed my gaze. He could tell Id come to like and admire and root for the Boomtrain guys. I could understand health risks they thought they were taking. I was glad it looked like theyd ultimately discovered the momentum they so badly requirement.” Tell me tell you what the most difficult concept “wouldve been”. The worst concept is that these guys get their funding tomorrow and are persisted doing this for another time. So far, they are lost one .”

Failure by Design

Boomtrain had schemed a company recede for the last weekend in January, to celebrate the one-year commemoration of their acceleration. That week of Christmas, when they had 50 dates of money left, Nick told me that it would all be resolved one way or another by the time they got to Tahoe.” I suspect well either be getting very drunk ,” he said,” or well be getting very drunk .”

But by the time they arrived at the recede , nothing had been resolved. Google Ventures coinvestor said he was keen to invest but had been instructed by the GV partner in Mountain View to hold off; the GV partner, when they ultimately sounded from him, said he was waiting for a full meeting with his partnership. So, on this Tahoe trip to which theyd been looking forward for so long, neither of them got drunk at all. We drove past the sun- and salt-faded Stateline casinos to Nicks familys cabin, on the Nevada side, near Zephyr Cove. The technologists were coming in later in the day, but now it was quiet. Chris asked if I wanted to go down to the dock and look out at the ocean. The unseasonably warm and dry December had loitered on into January, and the scant snowfall had melted into patches. He thought about the other fellowships that had gone through AngelPad with them, a few of which has only closed.” What happens to everything they did? Does it exactly wash off ?” He knew that if Boomtrain had just six or nine more months, they could at the least throw themselves in a good position to be acquired by one of their patrons, which would allow them to feel as though somethingsome self-respect, some emblem of the cultivate theyd put inhad been salvaged. When Chris and I returned to the house, they got the bad news that theyd started to expect: Google Ventures was out. Chris seemed less resigned than he often was, a little angrier and a little more uncomprehending. He wanted to know why theyd committed such an enthusiastic perpetrate exclusively to withdraw. Apparently, Nick said, the full marriage rally had revealed that theyd already invested in fellowships in the personalization seat. So that left Boomtrain to consider a scenario worse than insolvency: to get only $750,000 from Bobby and Ullas, representing no end to fund-raising , no time to focus on sales or rent, let alone their concoction. As it materializes, they would avoid that fate. Although their bank account would dip to less than $800 before the first fund slam, Bobby and Ullas would bring along a few more investors, and by the last week in February the total round would be jostling up against that $1.5 million target. And then, all of a sudden, three small but respected institutional fundsone of whom hadnt vexed to return Nicks announces in Januarywould essentially requests to get in on the round. With Bobby and Ullas permission, they are able to make the round( still a large seed round , not a Series A) get oversubscribed and close with$ two million. The purchaser aviators that began in January would look even better than expected, and the big media concern that took the deep rebate would begin the process of figuring out how to use them in other rooms. By early March, when the money ultimately closed and the numbers were in, Nick and Chris would feel nearly 12 times of lightnes before the nervousness of fundraising were replaced by the nervousness of bringing, both of products to customers and of stockholder evaluate to their new investors. All the while, Martinos ultimate warningthat they might someday regret actually getting the money they wantedwould still hang over these two young men, inherent to a organization designed to turn strivers into subcontractors. Instead of what you want to buildthe consumer-facing, world-remaking thingalmost invariably you are pushed to build a small section to new technologies that someone with a lot of fund requires built cheaply. As the engineer and columnist Alex Payne threw it, these startups represent” the field parts of a large dispersed workforce assembled by venture capitalists and their associate establishments ,” doing low-overhead, low-risk R& D for five corporate whales. In these systems, the real disappointment isnt the uncovering that youre unlikely to become a billionaire; its the realization that your fondnes of autonomy is a fantasy, and that the highest proportion of you have been set up to fail by design. In the members of this house at Tahoe, Chris showed me his magazine, which he hadnt had the chance to write in for a while. Here there are still the slanted, sensitive pitch-black verse was interrupted by a crosshatched line drawing of a mountain, a route, a fish. There were two elaborate maps of trip-ups hed planned to takea backpacking trip through Europe, a motorcycle tour of the Southwestthat hed had to postpone. The last-place concept he spoke to me was a line Id sounded him echo as a kind of mantra:” It’s not the loading, its how “youre carrying” it .” After that, Chris built a fire and opened his laptop to production, but then thought they might feel right after a flow. He called to Nick and a few minutes later we were out on the route, the pine needles wilting in the melted snowfall. Eventually we plodded down to the beach, the empty wharves extending into the ocean like splayed and transgressed talks. The sunbathe was almost down, the dilute pink wintertime sun becoming a glassy grey-headed on the silent ocean. They sprinkled off into the shoals like little boys in summer. Chris wiped up his hands and arched his back and then was under. Nick followed a few moments afterwards. They killed back up through the surface at the same epoch, then waded, proud for formerly to detected in no particular move, back to the coast. ***

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